Another school year begins and so do mom's tears...

Hannah started the 5th grade this year and Madelyn started the 1st grade. I would like to know where the time has gone?!? Every school year I cry when I take the girls to school. A few days before school starts I’ll see the city painting the crosswalks on the street and I’ll start to cry. My girls get so embarrassed they almost wouldn't let me walk them into school. I tried telling them that I was a cool mom... That didn't work out to my advantage. They said that if I was a cool mom I wouldn't need to actually say out loud that I was a cool mom. But I know deep down that they KNOW that I am a cool mom.. I finally convinced them to let me walk them to class by promising that I wouldn't cry until I got back in the car. But as soon as I walked into the school that rush of sadness came over me. I said that we needed to take Hannah first to class because if I did start crying the 1st graders wouldn't make fun of me but the 5th graders probably would.

I always cry the first day and then usually the second day as well. I cry not so much that I am sad that they are at school but because they are growing up faster then I would like. I look at my sweet girls and wonder if I have spent enough time with them. If I have taught them the things that they need to take care of themselves at school. I worry about Mady dropping her lunch tray and kids laughing at her, I worry about Hannah being so hard on herself and not knowing that she just needs to do her best. I know its silly and Tracy just laughs at me every year when I call him bawling my eyes out. I just love being a mom so much that I don't want to fail at it. I want to teach my girls to be independent, loving, and kind girls.

Well I made it through the first day of school, in fact I made it through the first couple of weeks I think mostly due to the fact of my new, sweet baby Ella!! She helped to ease the pain of a lonely, empty house. I love all 3 of my girls so much. I am so glad that Heavenly Father sent me these little beauties!! I am so glad that I talked Tracy into another baby (I am already trying to talk him into yet another baby)!! They have all brought such happiness into our lives...

Hannah and Mady, I hope that you have such a great year at school... and just Remember one thing... I AM A COOL MOM!!!